Two More Sleeps!

Well I leave for Calgary on Wednesday. I am experiencing so many emotions right now: nervous, excited, scared, anxious. I have been thinking that whatever is meant to be will be but sometimes I get this wave of emotion and I have to talk myself down off the ledge!

I have so many wonderful friends and family. Okay...now I'm crying. I just want this so bad and I still can't believe it has come to this. The needles, the drugs, the money. It's all so surreal. Every day when I stick the needles into my stomach I have to remind myself why I am doing this and that it will be worth it one day. My stomach is covered in bruises and so sensitive. The head aches are unbearable. This sucks! 

Full Speed Ahead!

AF paid me a visit yesterday so we are set to start the Gonal F and Luveris tomorrow along with the Suprefact...that's 4 shots per day. I've discovered the Suprefact gives me wicked headaches so that hasn't been much fun. DH and I both have to go on antibiotics also. Apparently our skin will become supersensitive while on the medication so no beach time for us. I have an u/s scheduled in Calgary for July 31st...only 6 more sleeps until I'm there and preparing for the big day. I also have a consultation with an acupuncturist in Calgary who specializes in Fertility. I don't even feel like this is my life but that I'm on the outside looking in. 

I Did It!!

I gave myself my first shot this morning!! I was so nervous I was shaking but it wasn't so bad. It took me like 10 minutes to get organized to do it but I'm sure I'll get more efficient. DH would not give it to me but kept saying, "Just do it. It won't be bad!" And it wasn't. It's weird putting a needle into yourself. Clearly I was never a heroine addict! LOL!! 

So I take the Suprefact injections twice a day until AF shows up and then I add 2 other injections: Gonal F and Luveris. That will be 4 injections a day for about 12 to 14 days. I can't believe this is happening. 

And We're Back!

Had the cyst removed in Calgary this morning. I had to be at the clinic by 8am for an u/s which showed the cyst was still there. I was secretly praying that it had gone away over the weekend and I simply came here for a lovely visit with a BFF, but oh well. So then I had to go back for the procedure at 11:30. It was interesting because you sit in a room waiting for you turn to go in and I could hear nurses talking to women who were going for their retrieval or transfer so now I know what it's going to be like when I go for mine. The draining of the cyst was not pleasant...I'm not going to lie but it was really quick so it was over fast. 

After the procedure I had my "teaching" of how to do the injections. It was a little overwhelming. In a few days I will be giving myself 4 shots a day...YIKES! And keeping dosages and everything straight will be interesting. They are so organized at the clinic though so I have a timeline that will help me. And holy drugs batman!!! I seriously need another suitcase to bring my drugs home...no joke. They won't fit!! And holy expensive. It's unbelievable!

Anyway, we're back on track. I start my first injections (Suprefact) on Wednesday. I'm so nervous. Thank goodness my DH is home from Europe now (and I'm not home) so he can help me with the first few shots.  I fly back home tomorrow.

How optimistic is this? I went shopping today but decided against buying work clothes in the hopes that I'll be too fat for them by fall. :-)

Unexpected Trip to Calgary

Well I got the phone call and the cyst is non-functional (yay!) but it needs to be gone before we can continue with treatment. So, I had two options: #1-wait it out and see if it's gone next week or #2-go to Calgary and have it drained. So I chose option 2. I'm getting on a plane tomorrow morning and will have the procedure done first thing Monday morning. This way we can continue on with the protocol as planned. I will also pick up all of my drugs while I'm there and they can show me how to do the shots and everything while I'm there. Apparently this is very routine and happens often. I guess the draining part isn't so pleasant but it will all be worth it in the end. Welcome to my life! 

Wishing And Waiting and Hoping and Praying

I went back to the hospital for blood tests today. Not sure when Calgary will get the results but I'm really hoping it turns out to be nothing and we can continue on with the protocol as planned. I heard from DH today. He phoned me from Europe. Even though I KNOW the cyst is no big deal I started to cry when I told him about it. Of course, he said it's no big deal and we will get through this and not to worry. He is so strong. 

Oh ya', and I'm a cleanse drop out. It was so HARD to stick to it while camping!! I made it halfway through the 10 day cleanse and then threw in the towel. I am still focusing on eating healthy though and cutting all the bad stuff out of my diet. Thank you Jesus for non-alcoholic beer!! Mmm...beer and clam on a sunny day. Yum!

Still going to acupuncture and I was even hooked up with a lady in Calgary who does acupuncture and specializes in fertility. She works with the clinic up there. So I was able to book a couple of appointments with her while I'm there. Yay! 

Will write more when I hear about the cyst situation. 

Minor Setback

Went for my u/s today and damn it if I don't have a cyst! Shoot! So I have to go back in for a blood test tomorrow to determine whether it is producing estrogen. Then they will decide if I need to have it drained or wait to see if it goes away on its own once the bc pills are done. This sucks. And where the HELL is my DH when I need him?!?!?!