Tomorrow will be one year since we drove home from Calgary with our hopes of IVF working destroyed. I'm not sure how I'll be tomorrow. It's going to be a hard day for a few reasons. The thing is I don't know if I'm dreading tomorrow because of it being the anniversary of the IVF not working or because it kind of marked the beginning of a horrible year for me. Not to mention two people I love are getting married tomorrow and I can't be there to see it because I'm no longer a part of their family. :(

In any case, tomorrow I will feel what I want to feel...cry if I want to cry...scream if I want to scream...laugh if I want to laugh. But I have made a commitment to myself that, after tomorrow, I move on and leave it all in the past. Like I said yesterday, I have built an incredible life for myself and it's about time I started living it and enjoying it!! GRATITUDE.