No, I don't believe what I said earlier. I think DS and I were exactly what DH wanted. There's a reason why we didn't have a baby...I know that. Just like there is a lesson in our separation. If only to teach me a lesson about being grateful for what I already have. To force me to realize that I need to start focusing on the present and not stress about the future. Live in the moment. Enjoy the moment. Love life...which I do. But, I miss my best friend.